I know this purely for fun and isn’t really accurate, but it was neat to see that according to this chinese conception chart, we will be having a girl. In fact, it also predicted that our first one was a boy, which of course that was pretty accurate. Brennan still says baby sister, so maybe the stars will be aligned. But I still have to wait 3 more months.

I remember that with Brennan the last month was the longest. It sure didn’t help that at the time I was working, well if you can call that working. I was employed at a crappy advertising agency, doing web development and design. But is was mostly maintenance because like most small agencies at the time of the dot bomb times, we were just trying to hold on to our clients. They were past doing anything cool with their websites, so business was just really slow. So pretty much throughout my pregnancy with Brennan, there was really no work to do all day, and so I would be just on the internet cruising all the websites. This was before I was really into reading blogs and before I started doing scrapbooking and stamping. Life was really different. I ate sushi for lunch practically everyday, got manicures every week, bought makeup, clothes, and shoes constantly. I had a lot more indispendible income back then.

Anyways, by the last month of my pregnancy, I knew that lifestyle was going to end. I really anticipated being a mother so much and not having to report to a bitch of a boss (although my boss left several months beforehand, and so I really had no one to report to). I ached to be a mom. I was just ready. That last month was definitiely the hardest to get through.

Now I am at my 5th month, and I am so ready to be a mom to #2. It is hard to imagine life as a family of 4, but I think it will make things even more complete. I think it will great that Brennnan will have a little playmate, someone to show the ropes to. Someone to be a big brother to. It will be interesting to see how he is around his brother/sister .

So many things are happening to us this year, and we aren’t even halfway through the year. I am so excited for Den especially. Today is his defense. He has been waiting for this right of passage for so long. I can’t believe that he is actually at this point now. I am so proud of him. I know that I don’t give him enough credit, but he has done so much for us as a caregiver, a husband and especially as a father.

Anyways, after our trip to the aquarium and his all day defense, we are going to celebrate with some yummy seafood. Maybe I will even get to sneak in some sushi as a sidedish.

Our week is pretty much booked. We have an activity planned everyday this week. We were invited to a bunch of things and it is weird how none of them are on the same day.

Monday, we have a first birthday party to go to. Tuesday, we are going to the Long Beach Aquarium. Wednesday, we are going to the Art Zone. Thursday we are going the La Habra Children’s Museum, and Friday I am dropping Brennan off at his other buddy’s house. Also, Monday is my birthday. It is funny because I had to check the calendar becaue I wasn’t sure if it fell on a Monday or Tuesday. Anyways, I am going be turning 23. Gosh, I am so young. Okay, I wish I was turning 23. Actually, I got married at 23 and received my Bachelors degree in Psychology. My that was so long ago.

Although, we don’t celebrate Easter in a religious sense, we are going over to my SIL’s house for lunch and then for a ham and roast beef dinner at my parent’s house. These kind of holidays are just an excuse for the family to get together.

In the meantime, I am preparing fora virtual meeting with my professor and my classmates for our Ethics Court. This might be boring for you, but in case you are interested please read on. Read the rest of this entry »

Yesterday, Den went to his office to prepare for his Ph.D. oral defense on Tuesday so we were home alone as usual. It was a typical sunny California day, so I decided to go to Valley Park, one of our favorite parks near the beach. Before going there, we stopped at jam.ba juice. Brennan loves that place. He makes hand motions like he is blending and bleeps out a whirring noise anytime I mention “big” juice (”big” juice is different from regular juice because it is hand made). Plus, I was too lazy to make the juice at home. And you know what happens when I make anything homemade. He doesn’t eat it, which is why I have given up on making vegetable soup btw.

Anyways, in between doing my research for my ethics defense, I am looking over the videos and pictures from yesterday. I took a series of ones where he was playing in the sand. I remember sitting there watching him for about 45 minutes or more. I was amazed on how focused and almost serious he was just scooping up sand and pouring it into the buckets and yellow dump truck. It’s like he was in this zone or something. He hardly even looked up for me. Anyways, I am just amazed at the little things that happens in our life.

I would have wrote this yesterday, but I just didn’t get a chance to. So I guess I have officially started the nesting process. For some reason, I had this urge to clean out the clothes drawers. I probably got rid of over 100 pairs of socks, some really sexy underwears that I used to wear, bras that I will never in hell wear again, and my breastfeeding bras from when Brennan was breastfeeding. I actually hated those bras and I think I will stick do these sport bras. There aren’t actually really sport bras, because the material is not as supportive, but are much more confortable. I also got rid of some of Den’s clothes, but when I told him that I refolded all his clothes in his drawer and put aside of bunch of his socks and shirts, he kind of scolded me and asked me why I didn’t ask him which clothes he wanted to keep. Uh! I thought I was doing him a favor. He was like why are you throwing all my good socks away? I responded and said that he doesn’t need 50 pairs of socks. Then he said, well what if you don’t wash the clothes for a while. Double uh! Men, I tell you. So I removed all his shirts and most of his socks from the pile and put them in another basket. Then I said, when you are ready to look at them in 10 years, let me know. Uh! Men! I am actually planning to take the socks and other stuff to Salvation Army when I get a chance. It is great that there is one really close by to us. I didn’t include my scanky underear and bras in there, if you were wondering.

I really am addicted to his mini sewing machine, but I am still having a little problem removing the piece after I am done sewing it. It seems like the extra thread gets stuck underneath the hole under the feeding foot. I guess I just need to practice more. But I feel like sewing every piece of paper that I can get my hands on. Also, I was a little bit perturbed because I decided to sew this piece that is part of my project, but as I was sewing, it got all jacked up. Now I have to redo the whole piece again. Poop!

Yesterday I updated to wordpress 1.5, which comes shipped with the binary bonsei theme as the default. So that is why you don’t see the cute little boy that you normally see pictured at the header. I have to edit a few files. I know you rather see my beautiful boy, rather than this lovely blue template. Also, my links became a little screwy. Apparently I have different link categories, links, almost daily reads, technical related links. Of course, the links and almost daily reads should be combined because I pretty much read all of my links every day, except the ones that don’t update on a daily basis.

A couple weeks I mentioned about how I wanted to drop Brennan off at someone else’s house, so that both him and I will get used to being separated in preparation for school in the fall. Well today I took him to that same house again with the same two boys there. This time I prepared him by telling him that I was going to drop him off at his friend’s house. I asked him is that okay and how do you feel about that. His response, was bye mom and then he did a little scream. I said no you aren’t going to scream. You will have fun, and don’t worry because mommy won’t be gone for long. I mentioned this to him since yesterday. I think it helped both of us because he actually didn’t cry for the whole hour and 15 minutes that I was gone.

When we first got there, I showed him a sugarless lollipop (yes, I had to bribe him a little). He quickly got out of the car and followed me to the door. But then he stopped as I went in. I took the lollipop out of the wrapper and he came in soon after. We went upstairs and I showed him all the toys and mentioned to him that I was going to leave. Then I walked downstairs to where the train was and said look at the cool train set. He immediatetely grabbed my hand and started to wimper a little bit. I walked toward the door while holding his hand and said that I was leaving. I told him not to worry and that I would be right back. I tried to kiss him, but he wouldn’t let me. The other mom grabbed his hand and I slipped out the door as she closed the door. I quickly drove off to Mic.haels to use my 50% coupon.

I couldn’t believe that I was at the craft store all by myself. I did feel a little bit antsy. The mom called me and told me that he was standing next to the door for about 15 minutes, when she brought him some cookies. He immediately refused, she said, but told him that she would leave them on the table. She left for a moment, and came back. She noticed that the cookies were gone, so she left a few more. Apparently, he quickly gobbled them up and then came upstairs looking for her to get some more cookies. She told me at the moment that he was downstairs playing by himself with the train and garage set. The other two boys were reading, or I guess looking at the pictures. She also told me that he didn’t cry at all. He did ask for me a several times, but other than that, he was just fine.

Gosh, I was so surprised because I was sure that he was going to scream and cry. I think it really did help that I talked to him about it beforehand. At that point I was so elated.

So I ended up buying some small brads and the provo.craft sew crafty mini. Also, I forgot to mention that yesterday I picked my early birthday present up, which was the sizz.lits window and frame making set (35 dies total of different shapes, including a postage die), with my 40% coupon from jo.anns. I swear, I don’t think I can go through a week without buying something crafty. You are probably right Angie and saying that I should save my money for crafty stuff because I sure buya lot of it. I don’t know how my husband can afford to support my crafty ass on his income.

When I got back, Brennan was just fine and I rewarded him with some bubbles. Of course, the other boys wanted to play with them too. I struggled to open the package while the kids kept swarming me and yelling bubbles. I finally hand them to Brennan, but then he handed them over to one of the other boys. What a sweet boy he is by sharing his toys. I am so proud of him. So we have it planned out that I will be dropping him off at the other boy’s house next Friday and the week after that I will take the boys. Hopefully, this all works out. I am pretty confdent that it will.

Then we left for lunch, which was at the sushi place that I banned when Brennan was younger. I yelled at the owner because they didn’t have any highchairs. But their sushi is so good that now I have unbanned them. Luckily, the owner doesn’t remember me. It has been so long ago anyways. It was crowed as heck. The other mom decided to join us, but we had to share a small table with the boys eating on our laps. I ordered 4 pieces of ikura (salmon eggs), two pieces of yellowtail, two pieces of albacore, a handroll, which was made with salmon, eel, and shrimp, two eggrolls, and miso soup. Brennan especially loves the ikura, probably because it is salty. It was a great lunch and a great day because we both did so well being away from each other.

The other night Brennan and I were taking a nice warm bath (don’t worry the water wasn’t too hot). He was rubbing bubbles on my belly and saying baby bubbles. As I lay quite peacefully, I thought what a perfect nickname for the baby. Brennan’s nickname in the womb was lumpy and baby q. Lumpy because he was so active and lumping all around and baby q for obvious reasons.

Brennan has been calling the tummy his baby sister, even though we don’t know the sex. We ask him do you want a baby brother or baby sister. He always says sister. I wonder if he has some kind of connection that we don’t know about. My next wellness appointment is on April 4, which is actually Brennan’s 2nd year appointment as well. If I can’t convince the OB to get an ultrasound to find out the sex, I think we may do the 3D ultrasound. It is only $175, a lot cheaper than I thought and way cheaper than if I had it done at my office.