I didn’t realize that there are so many baby slings out there. I have a Baby NoJo sling and Baby Bjorn, although not a sling. At the Botanical Garden’s outing yesterday there was a mommy who had a sling called the Maya Wrap. The prompted me to do an online search on slings. The ones I found were the Rosado Sling, Rebozo Mexican Baby Sling, Selendang Indonesian Baby Sling, Kabuki Baby Carrier, and the Podegi Korean Baby Carrier to name a few. I am thinking of getting another sling, one that is a little bit more fashionable than the Baby NoJo, which only comes in a dark demin and a lighter demin. Also, it seems a bit shallow, so I don’t know how much longer I can carry Brennan in it before he starts to fall out. I really don’t like the Baby Bjorn. It is very uncomfortable. One time I carried him in it while I went clothes shopping at the mall for several hours. My back and shoulders hurt for days. He also fell asleep in it and you know when babies fall asleep they are just limp as a rag doll. He was flopped forward with all his limbs dangling. It did not seem too comfortable for him. I am getting some pretty good information on this website: www.peppermint.com. It has some relatively good information on slings. Let me know what what type of sling(s) you have used and what you thought of them.

I joined up with a group of lovely ladies and one man with their babies to see the South Coast Botanical Gardens. It was quite a warm day. Brennan was a wee bit overdressed, so I stripped him down in his shirt and diaper. Mind you I am used to beach weather, which is usually about 70 degrees. Since we were a little inland, it was probably about 80 degrees. But if you go even more inland, it probably got up to 90 degrees. Sweat-o-Rama folks. Anyways, we passed by a garden of herbs, a sea of cacti, relaxed by the lake, where we played with the ducks, and ended up at the Children’s Garden otherwise known as Miss Peggy’s Garden. After that I had lunch with another mummy and here hubbie (the one man) for some dim sum in local Lomita. It was a wonderful day.

I received an email saying that even though I passed the deadline for applications, I could still apply. I still have to take the tests. One in June and one in July. Hmm. Is it meant to be. Dennis will think I am crazy. I know that I am already out of my mind. I will have to ponder this idea. I mean this might be the best shortcut out of this joint. I really feel lost here. I didn’t apply for the deadline last week because I thought that I only had 2 days to apply and 3 days to study for the test. I mean if I studied everyday for a couple hours a day, I could actually past the tests. We will see. The thing is that I don’t know if I want to take this shortcut because at the moment it is the fastest possible solution out of here. Well another solution would be is if I was laid off. Just like another co-worker said to me just now before he left was “We can only sit here doing nothing for so long, until we are axed”. I would celebrate if that happened.

Well at least I get a long weekend. I won’t be back here untill next Wednesday.

On Friday Brennan and I went to Darren and Karen’s house. Brennan checked out Darren’s bungie jumper and his MegaSaucer. We had lots of fun. I bought Brennan his own MegaSaucer.

He absolutely loves it. I haven’t really gotten a chance to see him place it full force since I am work and he is of course most active during the day. Although, I have tomorrow and Friday off until the beginning of June. I was debating whether to purchase the bungie jumper or not. If anyone out there has one, please let me know what you think of it.

We then walked to the local Italian shop and split a pizza with tomatoes, mushroom, and prosuitto to go. I carried Brennan in my baby sling and Karen carried Darren in her backpack. Darren took a nap while Brennan watched Baby Mozart. He loved that too. I unfortunately don’t have a picture of that. I bought him Baby Bethoven and Baby Einstein.

We headed home soon after.

My May Day photos are up. It took me a little while. Although, I did enjoy doing this fun project, I regret not taking more photos of the surroundings around me. I was just concerned about just taking enough photos to post. I hope you enjoy nevertheless.

After you check out my photos, check out other “TheMayDayProject“.

I am stressing out. You see I am at a crossroads in my life. After Brennan was born, I was simply enjoying being a new mother. I was trying not to think about work and what I was going to do when I returned. I was also thinking that once I returned, we would finally get new business and that I was gonna have shit loads of work to do. That first week of returning to week came and gone and now I am stressed. What am I going to do?

Well one thing was to start looking for a new job. Of course, I have been looking for a long time. I have been feeling hopeless about finding something new for a long time. Then something interesting and scary dropped upon my lap. Now it is stressing me out. I have to get my resume together, write a personal essay, take a couple of tests, and find my transcripts. All this has to be done by next Friday, which is May 16. I did some brainstorm writing for the personal essay, but it is so scattered. AHH!!! Tomorrow after I get back from Mother’s Day Yogathon at the AdventurePlex, I will have to work on this essay. Oh well, I don’t want to write about this topic anymore.

So I have, or had this great fantastic friend. For some reason she is not talking to me. This has been going on for about two years. We were extremely close. But after our other close friend’s wedding and after finding out that her older sister had cancer, she stopped talking to me. During that time, we had moved kind of far away from everyone. I called her and left her our new number. That was a year and a half ago. I even dropped by her house and left a note on her car, left her millions of phone messages and time to time had even asked our other friend what was up with her. At first she would play the I don’t know game and oh she has been busy. I asked her if she talked to her? She said says. I am lilke and… Well today I asked again. She was trying to play the round about game. I apologized and said that I don’t want her to be in between this thing. She was like I am not in between this. She said that she hoped that we one day we could talk again, but felt that my friend should be the one to explain not her. I just broke down, and said what kind of self-centered person am I that I don’t know what I did to get my friend so mad at me that she would just stop from talking to me. I have lots of experiences where people would just stop talking to me. I mean hasn’t everyone been burned by a friend or two. I realize that I am not a great friend to people. So what. I really don’t likie making new friends in general. But let’s not get into that part. I just don’t know why this particular person has stopped talking to me. Can’t she just call me and yell in my face and telll me off. Tell me that I am a worthless friend and how could I do that to her. I guess I will never know what I did. Oh well…

You know we all have secrets and mistakes in our lives. Don’t we? Maybe I have become more introspective. I hope that one day I don’t explode and go crazy. Maybe I already am crazy. I need to think about this one.

So this is what I did at work today. Did some job searching. Yes, the minute that I walked in the door, I started searching for a new job. And it is only my third day back. Then I pumped. After that I did some menial work. I ate lunch. Talked to someone. Read some blogs. Pumped some more. Printed photos of Brennan. Talked to someone else. Looked around. Hmm… What a great place. So what did you do today? Hit me with some comments if there is actually anyone who reads this