You hoo! What’s this quickpress thing! Cool! Here is a cute picture of my babies long time ago.
July 25, 2005
January 13, 2003
So after that depressing entry, I thought I would share with you my first version of a homemade swift and yarn winder. The winder is not my original idea, but I was inspired by fig and plum. I tested it with some Vanna White yarn first. I have several skeins of lace yarn, but I wanted to test it on thicker yarn first.
I feel like I am drowning. Actually, it’s more like I am spiraling out of control, but what the heck, its all the same thing. I think I am in control, but I’m not. I may look happy from the outside, but inside I am falling apart. Don’t get me wrong, life is not horrible. It’s me. I’m am in this weird depressive state and getting obsessed with things that are not healthy at times. I don’t want to feel this way anymore. It’s an awful feeling, you know. I haven’t been able to concentrate on work and school, although I manage to get by. I know I need to seek professional help. I’m afraid, I suppose to face my inner demons. It’s been a long time since I have seen someone. Why do I always feel like I am being judged. Stop judging me. Just let me be me. I feel like I am suffocating.
I want to grow some pretty flowers and other vegetables today, but perhaps I will do it another day. Perhaps on a brighter day. It is gloomy today. I feel alone, surrounded by family and friends. I feel alone. This darkness. This darkness is sharing my body with me. It walks next to me and my shadow. Creeping, closer and closer. I can’t seem to shake it. I’m tired, oh so tired. It doesn’t matter that I had a full night rest or if I’ve been awake with insomnia. I still feel tired. When will I feel rested and energetic again? Coffee doesn’t help much.
If my family knew, they would think what a failure I am. Yet another thing, she can’t do right.
I just renewed Quinntillion for another year. Woohoo!!!
It’s not happening. Blogging that is. I just don’t have the attention span to do it. Until the next entry.
I have started blogging again. It must have to do with this anticipation of Spring, although we still have another 6 weeks of Winter. I will also be blogging some private stuff, but if you want to gain access to them, you will have to be a registered user. If you have ever registered on this blog, you got a free pass in.
I’ve been thinking about life changes lately, more then I really want to. Some good and some bad. I recently discovered this blog rawpomona.
This blog chronicles my journey as I transition my diet toward more unprocessed, raw, organic, vegan foods in an effort to transform my health. Pomona is the Roman goddess of fruits and orchards; it’s also my home, so it’s only appropriate I should name this blog in honor of her.
This is perhaps the life change that I need to take. I have gained more weight than is healthy in the last couple years, and also I do have a propensity in developing diabetes. My mom is pre-diabetic, and her mom was diabetic, although she developed it in her 90’s. Simply put, I haven’t been taking care of myself physically or mentally, so there is some changes that I need to take. I do want to watch this documentary “Raw for 30 days“, Morgan Spurlock - creator of “Supersize Me” before I start anything though.
I have been in denial for way too long and I need to start thinking about focusing on me and making myself happy.
WP 2.6 is weird, so if you are seeing multiple entries please forgive me. I will be installing WP 2.7 sometime this week. I just want to get back into blogging as soon as possible.
